Say What You Want.

Happy belated birthday, Ashleigh! :) i texted you at midnight. hope you got it though. haha. since you’re all the way in London and all. PFT. left us all here with no birthday party to attend this year. sucks, okay. you always have a party and it’s fun & simple. i like parties like that. :) gives everyone a chance to mingle and mix around & have fun. but noo, you’re not here this year. spending it in London at the Pang residence. PFT. :P anyway, yea. HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY! you’re my best friend, babe. :) hope you’re having a good time in London & i hope you’re birthday was great. :) can’t wait till you’re back. we miss you!

Oh, & happy belated one month, baby. :) i didn’t manage to post it on Friday cos of the sleep over. :) i got to be with you though. so yea. it was perfect just the way it was. just wanted to wish you again. :) though i think it’s a little too late already. haha. haven’t had time to post. well actually, i’ve just been too lazy to use my computer and go on Tumblr. :P my tumblarity’s so low now. oh well. haha. but yea, happy belated one month, baby. I LOVE YOU.

Oh, speaking of Tumblr, Sim is so so weird. :P she kept saying tumblrlog on the way home to her house on Friday. it was a you had to be there moment. but yea, still. i still have it on recording on my phone cos i forgot to delete it when we got back to her place even when she asked me to. :P even she forgot. so yea. besides, we wanted to use it as her ringtone! haha. but we didn’t even try it in the end. we forgot. :( haha. she sounded like a man! :) the sleepover was good though. :) it was fun. Sim, Brian, Daniel & I. :) we watched loads of Disney movies! Sim’s suggestion. :P but yea. haha.

I just watched an Ok Go dance. it’s so funny, i tell you. suits the four of you so much. :P can’t wait to watch you guys do it. haha. it’s gonna be damn cool if you get it synchronised. :) good luck. perform it in school one day. you’ll get everyone’s attention. :) haha. & btw, Cempaka’s Got Talent was a huge success! :) if you haven’t already read that elsewhere. the performances were awesome. Gao Jye & Ji Lian won. shared first place. the judges decided to take the easy way out and have 2 winners instead of coming to a conclusion of just one. so they had to split the prize. movie tickets, i think. :) yea. we performed Jai Ho again under Pn. Farah’s orders. so yea.

I need to see Pn. Sapura about my report card. it’s so late already. :( i hope it’s okay. i hope she got the note. & i haven’t paid my 15 ringgit fine yet. gosh. i was late today. heh.

Okay, i’mma go now. this post is so long-winded. bye. :)

frommyheart:

She won’t call you, you have to call her. She won’t come talk to you, you should go talk to her. She’s not going to let you act stupid and pretend she likes it. You should just be around her. When you’re with a group of friends, she isn’t going to run into your arms no matter how much she wants to. You need to come up behind her and wrap your arms around her, and let her friends get jealous. She loves you more than you can imagine, no matter how much she doesn’t show it. But you boy, you need to show her how much you love her. So she isn’t afraid to show it back.

(via thegreenmonster)

I love you like no other. More than I love all the food in the world. & hey, that means a lot already. You’re not here right now, you’re out. I miss you terribly. & I’ve been so horrible to you today. Putting you in situations that you don’t even deserve. Making you read things you don’t wanna read, making you feel things you don’t wanna feel or just making you sad & upset. You’re so much better than this. You deserve so much more.

I’ve told you so many things. From all the good times to all the bad ones. You sat through with me listening to all my problems without a single complaint. Instead, you helped me. You’re always by my side, you’ve never once left me when I needed you. You’re always there when I call late at night just because I want someone to talk to. You’re always there when I don’t feel good just to comfort me. We laughed, we cried - well, I did at least, we made fun of each other, we joked, we teased, we were comfortable.

We had ample amount of good times, but equally as many bad times just the same. Right now, thinking about how I’ve been to you lately, it hurts. It makes me sad. Especially when I see how much you care about me. When I see your effort to try to be there all the time, or try to at least assure me you’re always right there next to me & that you didn’t forget about me. Or the way you look at me with those eyes. It’s like you’re trying to tell me how much you love me through those big bright eyes of yours. It just hurts so much to see you do that when I haven’t exactly been of my best lately. Getting annoyed all the time, getting angry at you, being moody or upset. It’s true it’s all part of being a girl, but those other things, I can’t change that. I wanna be better, but it’s not so easy. I have to put you through this, you have to put up with this. I’m sorry, baby. But I love you. & I just don’t wanna see you hurt or upset.